A typical day in my life

On the escalator after returning to Central I couldn't help but call my good friend:

" baby, I just want to tell you that I love you, and the whole world, but I am god damn tired!!!"

 

This morning, got up earlier to

prepare the final meeting with my client, because she is leaving this afternoon to England for vacation...I ran to the office, organized a whole bunch of document for her to sign...rushed to meet my partner...tk god Ukio gave me a pack of cookies so at least I had something to burn until 3pm...   Meeting...on her rooftop...with a nice ocean view...talked about all the quotation, work timetable, design elements...   Finished the meeting...sweating like crazy...so I decided to treat myself a bit better and jump into the swimming pool a few miles away from her home...   Got tanned...swam 500 meters without stopping like a real fish...the last 50 meters I gave the best shoot...I had only changed to breath 4 times for the last 50 meters...   Then thought about my poor husband who is laying in the hospital...so of course I needed to look after him...bought fruit...bought MacDonald's that he likes...grab a Taxi...then got a reply from another client...OK that project is confirmed...Meeting tomorrow afternoon...   Got to Hospital...talked to him for a while...then got a phone call from HMV...the movie I had on order for two months finally arrived...<La Grande Bouffe>   Picked up the movie at HMV...reviewed all Micheal Jackson's DVDs...Love his smile...Starting to have no fear of death, because many good people, they are in the heaven waiting for me...   SO bought another of MJ's DVD...   Then, MOM...as a daughter I also need to take care of her everyday...called her to pretend I was extremely hungry (actually I was cuz I only had cookies) then convinced her to have dinner with me...

At that moment, I was totally exhausted...so I called my friend and yelled to her: " please I love this world, but I am too tired...pls I really don't want to have a baby and have her suffer what I am suffering...I am loving but I am god damn tired...but I know I need to keep going on because many people need me!!!"   Then dinner with mom...spent an hour with her in that nice, cozy Nepalese Restaurant ...The boss somehow looks like my ex-boy friend...   After dinner back to my studio...spent two hours checked around all the hotels in Prague & Budapest and confirming them----the most important process, CONFIRMED them...not just wasting time browsing...   Then replied my clients' emails...wrote a new proposal for the design, finished the quotation... I done all of this while...looking after two bars...Joyce is not here and Fresco...Guy's last Jam night in Joyce cuz he will start his vacation...Fresco has beautiful exciting Latin Music...   But I could't dance, I could't sing...I kissed with Susie, with Katherine, with my brother Horrace...with all my lovely friends...All my dearest...I could't enjoy such wonderful moments with you guys...   Because I am busy, and even I am exhausted...but I still have more and more and more work to do...and it never ends...   Finally I need to sit down and write all about this,,,cuz writing is my interest. If I don't write enough then I will feel that I am not myself anymore...   Career, Health, Family, Love, Music & Movies, Writing, Money, Interest, everything...none of them I can really give up!!! NONE...and as a perfectionist, I want to enjoy them all EVERYDAY...it fulfills my life but damn I am too tired...   Like I told JJ tonight: "honey, I don't have a fear now for death, because so many people who I loved, are already in heaven waiting for me..." JJ is a black boy and he loves MJ...   On wed. night I watched TV in my studio and checked on-line about MJ's music...I kept crying until 5am...not that sentimental just feel, that we all need to leave sth behind, when we disappear from this world...maybe a book, maybe a bunch of money, maybe a memory, or maybe just a smile...